So why in the world do authors do it? Why after the one-hundred and first rejection letter did Madeleine L’Engle take A Wrinkle in Time to the hundred and second publishing house?
Are writers simply arrogant? Patently optimistic? Grotesquely naive? Yes, yes, and yes. But the full truth is this: we write because we must.
We write, though the words go slipping through our fingers like wet soap,... though the feelings of a girl living in 1863 are interrupted by a cellphone call,... though the agent doesn’t want or the publisher let us go out of print... We write because we must.
And when we visit bookstores and stare at the rows of name-brand writers whose publishing houses buy them shelf space and and oodles of marketing, we weep at our pitiful condition.
But the act of writing always brings us back from the edge of the abyss.
Something that began as a single thought has eventually risen up to stare back at us fully formed — walking, talking, thinking, feeling — in a world created out of nothing.
When we write, we’re a perfectly balanced ball spinning on the tip of God’s finger. Perpetual Motion. Time machine. Pleasure beyond description.
Arrogant? You bet. The sort of rollicking arrogance that comes from knowing the pen is mightier than the sword. Optimistic? Always. We are addicted to hope. Naive? Oh, yes. Entirely. The rejection letter always comes a complete surprise.
Will we start again despite it all? Of course we will. We must.